What a crazy weekend! Sometimes I wonder how I get myself into all these situations.. but apparently i do, and i somehow choose my way there. I don't even know where to start. There was so much drama on the clinic this weekend it made me want to run away and never go back. A bunch of people got busted for using drugs on the unit and got kicked out... bah. i don't even want to think about all the shit that went down... shivers...
SO, i still have no idea of how much i weigh and its driving me absolutely crazy!! The last time i checked it, I was 129 lbs... just 5 or 6 more lbs and ill be happy! Unfortunately the hospital is kind of on my back with dropping the weight. They want me to take more time off off of work to spend more time there... dream on! Im just finally getting a life again.. now they want me back there?
Things with Nate aren't going as well as id hoped. I mean i like him, hes a sweet guy, but he is very troubled. And i dont need another person in my life who is just as troubled as i am.. or at least a boyfriend who is. So now i have to break the news to him that I cant be what he wants me to be (his girl). WE just confessed our feelings for eachother at his cousins birthday party... but i really realized that if i want whats best for me it cant be him. Its funny how i can do the right thing in some areas of my life, but when it comes to areas like taking care of my body... im not as on the ball with that.
How am I doing foodwise today... lets not go there. Lets just put it this way. Its 10:30 am and ive had more calories than i need in 3 days.
Stay strong ladies
xxoRach
Don't let anyone bring you down, we all know how it feels to sacrifice things for this. You seem like you have a strong head on your shoulders when it comes to this boy.
ReplyDeleteStay strong, honey <3