Thursday, July 28, 2011

finding nothing finding no one

Dear Blog.

For a moment there I thought a may have lost weight.
As soon as I do good... I fucking binge my face off...bah!
Mia I hate you. I cannot find Ana no matter what i do!

5 days till rehab: Im scared shitless.



  1. i am really proud that you have decided to go to rehab. maybe you're scared of change, because you don't want to give up your ED and your habits that in your mind are the only ways to make you "beautiful." Well sucks for ana and mia, but you don't need them; you already are beautiful. I pray that maybe this time is rehab you can understand this and realize that this change could be for the better, and can help you out for the rest of your life. I hope that you open up enough to let some changes occur. It'll be frustrating, it'll be tough. But don't walk away before the miracle happens.

  2. I don't know weather you are still in rehab, but I really hope it went well for you.

    I still think about you a lot, and hope that everything is ok.

    I still love you as much as ever, my wonderful name twin!